this may look familiar like you've seen it somewhere before, so fasten your seat belts and get ready to experience Audrey's 2012. Not exactly the best year (are you kidding me?) pfft okay I lied. It's the best so far. When I say best, it includes all the ups and downs and all the experiences I've been given this year, it was actually quite amazing I have to say.
SPM ended and you got addicted to tumblr, met a lot of nice people and even gained tones of followers, well not much but enough to keep you by the computer 17 hours a day. All you ever do at home was eat, sleep, and of course tumblr. YOU gained weight like crazy because you decided to stay at home while your friends they all went to get a part time job. Oh, you were going to work but then you figured that nah maybe you shouldn't and I bet you regret that now huh? After a few weeks of constantly feeding yourself with anime (FAIRY TAIL) and FOOD, you finally got your SPM results. weehee it was satisfying but that was going to be the end of your fun and games on tumblr. You left anyways. And didn't look back. You're going to have a lot of fun with your friends at the beach and maybe build up a love interest in the process too, meh you couldn't tell because you weren't really looking for anything like that at the moment. Burying your friends in sand and making sand balls, yes you're going to have a blast, make sure you cherish that alright?
You finally got bored and let go of your holiday mood, you go back to school. You're going to be relieved that you're still going to have fifits around, school is nothing without them. Heck, life is nothing without them. More of your friends especially fifits leaving to study and you're going to feel a little lonely and maybe a little jealous but it's okay you'll get over it eventually when you actually enter Form 6. Orientation might be a little scary at first, and the seniors might be a little intimidating too, the new kids will look like they are super smart and arrogant but wtf aud. You are going to regret ever thinking that way, those are the people who you'll be spending the rest of the years with laughing. You're going to love your seniors and have awesome classmates. Not to mention maybe a hot physics teacher lol. You're going to be forced into joining the girl's basketball team for mini sports event and you're going to love it. Like seriously love it. Cherish that moment too please? Passing balls to each other, while yelling non stop really exhaust you but that's what you like to do most, being horribly loud.
You're going to build up a very strong relationship with someone, I don't know how to put it but I think it's called a love-hate relationship. You're going to be assisting at the library too, maybe become president. Maybe have yourself become MC for prom too because of... no reason really. Falling in love without noticing it was nice wasn't it? Don't get yourself hurt though and try not to force on too strong. Don't sacrifice too much. Don't be too optimistic. Don't put your hopes up too high. Don't ever make people feel guilty. Don't ever do things that you will regret. Don't cry every night. Don't let your emotions get to you. Self control is the key. Slow down and hit the brakes sometimes, don't let jealousy get the best of you. NEVER let jealousy get the best of you, it will turn you into someone different, someone who is NOT you at all. It's going to affect a lot of things. Relationships, academics and stuff like that. Also, study harder you lazy bum. Don't lose yourself, don't forget who you are, don't forget who you want to become. Don't become someone else without even noticing it.
The first term was over after the exam and you felt like some bulldozer have been lifted up from your shoulders. You can finally relaxed and finally spend some time with people. Hey Aud, people might not be able to spend time with you so don't get upset or jealous about every little thing okay? They ditched so be it, you'll get your chance! You are going to feel really stupid afterwards if you get mad at little things like this. You might want to be someone's number one but sometimes you just can't. You might want to be the most important one but you can't. Even if you are, YOU CAN'T. Don't waste your time crying over split milk, it is what it is. And when people give you advice, why don't you fucking listen to them? Why do you dwell in the past so much? Why won't you just give way? Why won't you just give up? Because you were too blind, you get upset everyday, you cry everyday. You lost yourself in the process. I was disappointed in you.
Don' worry though because things are going to change for the better. You're going to finally realized how dumb you were before and slowly, very slowly, sort out things and finally turn over a new leaf. This time a bigger leaf too. Maybe a greener one too. One that will provide you with lots of chlorophyll and give you plenty of sunlight? Okay wtf are you writing? All I'm saying is that you are going to be fine at the end of the year. You finally see things through. You finally moved on. Distance helps actually. It really does. You might not completely move on but you're getting there. Keep it up so you won't lose it!
Time went by so fast, so many memories. All I wish to keep until forever. YOU, if you have the chance to playback and rewind. Will you fix your mistakes? Will you stop yourself from doing the things you regretted? Will you try not to fall? Will you try to change your future? Well, if you ask me. My answer would probably be NO.
Those mistakes made me wiser.
Those tears made me stronger.
Those regrets made me appreciate more.
Those lies can no longer blind me.
And then 7 minutes before 2013 arrives, you're going to be finishing up this post. You're going to look for an Adventure time gif on tumblr and you're going to hesitate about posting this up but you did it anyways. You're going to keep remembering what you can and keep fighting for what's rightfully yours. Look, what's yours is yours no matter how hard you try to get rid of it.
New Year resolution you say?
1. Be more hardworking.
2. Eat less ZENQ.
3. Lose some weight b*****
This has been a wonderful year
