out of reach

I'm not really happy with the GE-13. I'm really disappointed. i don't usually talk about politics because i freaking hate it but this time it was different. Everyone was ready and certain for a change, a new beginning, a better future. But all that faith crushed by injustice. I can't believe i actually lived in such a country for 18 year, and that i'm going to have to live with it til who knows when? I stayed up late knowing that our people will get what we wanted, what we voted for. I just don't understand their desperation. How do you expect your people to stay with you when you used all these dirty tactics just so you can rule again. You have no idea how pissed off I am. I am so ashamed. It doesn't end there. People who we are suppose to call our own nation, our brothers and our sisters are publicly posting their opinions about how Chinese and Indians should be send back to where they came for. Well, o0o to you. I'm not trying to be rude here but they freaking started it. Okay enough about stinking politics. It's ruining my blogging mood.

Moving on to my  MUET results which isn't a really happy topic either but guess what? I got a freaking Band 3. I checked at midnight and found out the results before a lot of my classmates and to be honest. I was shocked, I almost cried. But then it was really stupid to cry about such things and that I should be happy and satisfied with what I was given because at least Band 3 is still a pass. But today in school, I found out that I was only 3 marks away from Band 4 and it was like "hold, stop and rewind". I didn't cry. I learnt quickly that I should just freaking accept it. But 3 marks. LOL my writing was really bad, I think I got the question's instructions wrongly and I didn't even get half of the marks. Okay. that's in the past now. I did all I could but this is what God had prepared for me.

I don't understand how some people can be so thick at times. After all you did and you still have the face and guts to actually - ugh. I'm sorry. I just cannot tolerate people like this. Also stop being so fake. I tried to put it aside and not be a little bitch about it but I just can't. Everytime you just so make a sound, I just tick. I can tolerate annoying and loud people. I can understand cold and quiet people but I absolutely won't accept fake people like you. I used to respect you so much. I used to rely on you so much so I am really disappointed when the truth revealed itself. I really want to graduate faster coz I just can't stand you people anymore.

STPM sem 2 is like in two weeks and I am still here blogging away, I really need to hit the books but I just can't. Not after what happened.