Antie: 'Aiyah you finish form 6 already ah?'
Me: -Nods timidly- 'yeah...'
Antie: 'Ooohhhhh Lower six or Upper six ah?'
Me: 'Urm... Upper six?'
Antie: 'Ooohhhhh so fast owh! so where you want go? where you want study? what you want study? your dad let you go oversea mah? you are science stream is it? etc etc.'
Me: -awkward smile- 'he.he.he. see first oh antie.'
Yeah. Try going through that every single time you encounter one of my aunts or my parents' aunts or maybe their aunts' aunts. I'm not trying to be rude here and no I wasn't rude enough not answering their questions. I did try telling them initially but all of them just give me this 'aiyoyoh' look EVERY.SINGLE.TIME. I stopped trying to explain what I want to do or where I want to study to them altogether. It was easier saying things like 'IDK' or 'SEEFIRST' it shuts most of them up. You'll have to be very unlucky to encounter those persistent anties who digs information out of you like you just killed one of their sons or something. I'm having doubts about what I want to, exactly the reason why I haven't even touched my UPU pin. I don't want to make hasty decisions but I also want to just get on with it. I'm stuck in between what I should or want to do. The things that I want to do is just not something my parents might approve of. I don't blame them really. The thing I should do and the thing I want to do are just TWO very different things. They'll probably get mad at me for being this indecisive but yes, welcome to my brain, try to get to know your daughter more. I never thought making these decision would be so hard. Why is it so easy for everyone else? What am I lacking?-cecil harvey quote-
And then there's this other problem. I will admit that I want to go away too. I don't want to stay here. I can't be the only one, right? I mean- is it wrong that I feel this way? Wanting to go abroad just like everyone else? No. I don't think it's wrong. What's wrong is having to burden my family for my own selfish needs. Maybe not now, not this lifetime but then it strikes me. I only live once right?
Me: -Nods timidly- 'yeah...'
Antie: 'Ooohhhhh Lower six or Upper six ah?'
Me: 'Urm... Upper six?'
Antie: 'Ooohhhhh so fast owh! so where you want go? where you want study? what you want study? your dad let you go oversea mah? you are science stream is it? etc etc.'
Me: -awkward smile- 'he.he.he. see first oh antie.'
Yeah. Try going through that every single time you encounter one of my aunts or my parents' aunts or maybe their aunts' aunts. I'm not trying to be rude here and no I wasn't rude enough not answering their questions. I did try telling them initially but all of them just give me this 'aiyoyoh' look EVERY.SINGLE.TIME. I stopped trying to explain what I want to do or where I want to study to them altogether. It was easier saying things like 'IDK' or 'SEEFIRST' it shuts most of them up. You'll have to be very unlucky to encounter those persistent anties who digs information out of you like you just killed one of their sons or something. I'm having doubts about what I want to, exactly the reason why I haven't even touched my UPU pin. I don't want to make hasty decisions but I also want to just get on with it. I'm stuck in between what I should or want to do. The things that I want to do is just not something my parents might approve of. I don't blame them really. The thing I should do and the thing I want to do are just TWO very different things. They'll probably get mad at me for being this indecisive but yes, welcome to my brain, try to get to know your daughter more. I never thought making these decision would be so hard. Why is it so easy for everyone else? What am I lacking?-cecil harvey quote-
And then there's this other problem. I will admit that I want to go away too. I don't want to stay here. I can't be the only one, right? I mean- is it wrong that I feel this way? Wanting to go abroad just like everyone else? No. I don't think it's wrong. What's wrong is having to burden my family for my own selfish needs. Maybe not now, not this lifetime but then it strikes me. I only live once right?
