Dear XXX,
Thank you for everything. I know school ended long ago and we never really have the chance to meet every single week and I know I always turn you down on outings and stuff but know that I really really long to spend more time with you. Whenever it's just the two of us, there's is just no stopping us from going all emotional and talk about 'things'. To be honest, I was a little worried that we wouldn't be able to go back to how we used to be, mostly because we don't really encounter the same things anymore and that we don't really talk much on a daily basis. Well, you proved me wrong. I was so glad that some things just won't ever change and I am happy about it. Nothing can ever come between us, I believe. Because no matter what happens, I can always count on you to have my back. Always. Thank you. I love you :)
Dear XXX,
I noticed how- we just don't talk that much anymore. We used to be so- in sync and now when I'm with you, I feel like there's a wall between us. A wall that wasn't there before. We used to talk about everything, not everything but we somehow always find something to chat about it. I don't know if you're just busy with stuff, I completely understand. I'm not pointing fingers either so please don't get me wrong. I'm just saying- I missed how we used to act around each other. Well, nothing lasts forever.
Dear XXX,
I love you. I still do. No matter how hard I try, there is just no erasing it. I tried, I really did but this stubborn heart just won't give up that easily. I know I'm not suppose to and I know I'm not suppose to let it show but I don't want to hide it and I have no reason to. I don't want to hide anything from you. Not you, definitely not the whole world. I guess it goes to show even if I don't mention your name here. For one long year, I've tried to convince myself that I was still young and naive, I didn't know what I want. I don't see what's in store for me in the future. It's true. Til this day, I still have no idea what is it waiting for me somewhere 10 years later//20 years later. I tried to distract myself, making sure I always have work to do, always having something else to think about. I have to say, it did work. For a little while. I continued to lie to myself, lied to my heart, betraying my feelings. I thought that if I shun them away long enough, they'll just magically disappear. -laughs- girl where did you learn that from? Every time you say something, every word you say to me, every single thing you do for or not for me, affected me in so many ways that you will never ever understand. I try to stop myself at times but all that only leads to more craving. Everything you do is a big deal to me. Now and forever will. Because you know me better than anyone else. Because I know that you would understand. Because I know how you want me to be honest with you. Because I know writing this here isn't going to sabotage what we have. I was able to. Of course, it feels bad at first. People tend to want things more when they are denied. It's true how it affect how you think and feel about things in general. Oh take it from me, I think I know enough to be commenting on this. I was in that dark place, I was being a kid, I was being the negative side of me. I lost all sense of rationality I had back then. Well, I guess love makes you do stupid things. Like I said. WAS. Now, I see things differently. I was able to let things go, I was able to be honest and upfront about my own feelings, I was able to give my heart a chance. Once you admit something, it will be easier to deal with. So much easier, HAHA. I noticed that- I don't need to have you for myself. I don't need to cling to you all the time. I also don't have to feel so bad about myself everytime I think about you. That's all because I love you. From the bottom of my heart. All I want is for you to be happy too. Seeing you happy, has got to be one of the most rewarding things in life. Being by your side, have you share your ups and downs with me. Those are the actual things that I like experiencing everyday. Just know that, this doesn't change anything. I would still be me and you will still be you and of course, we will still be us. I love you :)
Thank you for everything. I know school ended long ago and we never really have the chance to meet every single week and I know I always turn you down on outings and stuff but know that I really really long to spend more time with you. Whenever it's just the two of us, there's is just no stopping us from going all emotional and talk about 'things'. To be honest, I was a little worried that we wouldn't be able to go back to how we used to be, mostly because we don't really encounter the same things anymore and that we don't really talk much on a daily basis. Well, you proved me wrong. I was so glad that some things just won't ever change and I am happy about it. Nothing can ever come between us, I believe. Because no matter what happens, I can always count on you to have my back. Always. Thank you. I love you :)
Dear XXX,
I noticed how- we just don't talk that much anymore. We used to be so- in sync and now when I'm with you, I feel like there's a wall between us. A wall that wasn't there before. We used to talk about everything, not everything but we somehow always find something to chat about it. I don't know if you're just busy with stuff, I completely understand. I'm not pointing fingers either so please don't get me wrong. I'm just saying- I missed how we used to act around each other. Well, nothing lasts forever.
Dear XXX,
I love you. I still do. No matter how hard I try, there is just no erasing it. I tried, I really did but this stubborn heart just won't give up that easily. I know I'm not suppose to and I know I'm not suppose to let it show but I don't want to hide it and I have no reason to. I don't want to hide anything from you. Not you, definitely not the whole world. I guess it goes to show even if I don't mention your name here. For one long year, I've tried to convince myself that I was still young and naive, I didn't know what I want. I don't see what's in store for me in the future. It's true. Til this day, I still have no idea what is it waiting for me somewhere 10 years later//20 years later. I tried to distract myself, making sure I always have work to do, always having something else to think about. I have to say, it did work. For a little while. I continued to lie to myself, lied to my heart, betraying my feelings. I thought that if I shun them away long enough, they'll just magically disappear. -laughs- girl where did you learn that from? Every time you say something, every word you say to me, every single thing you do for or not for me, affected me in so many ways that you will never ever understand. I try to stop myself at times but all that only leads to more craving. Everything you do is a big deal to me. Now and forever will. Because you know me better than anyone else. Because I know that you would understand. Because I know how you want me to be honest with you. Because I know writing this here isn't going to sabotage what we have. I was able to. Of course, it feels bad at first. People tend to want things more when they are denied. It's true how it affect how you think and feel about things in general. Oh take it from me, I think I know enough to be commenting on this. I was in that dark place, I was being a kid, I was being the negative side of me. I lost all sense of rationality I had back then. Well, I guess love makes you do stupid things. Like I said. WAS. Now, I see things differently. I was able to let things go, I was able to be honest and upfront about my own feelings, I was able to give my heart a chance. Once you admit something, it will be easier to deal with. So much easier, HAHA. I noticed that- I don't need to have you for myself. I don't need to cling to you all the time. I also don't have to feel so bad about myself everytime I think about you. That's all because I love you. From the bottom of my heart. All I want is for you to be happy too. Seeing you happy, has got to be one of the most rewarding things in life. Being by your side, have you share your ups and downs with me. Those are the actual things that I like experiencing everyday. Just know that, this doesn't change anything. I would still be me and you will still be you and of course, we will still be us. I love you :)
