This place has been inactive for a while and  I do apologize. I really don't have time to mess around anymore and even if I did, I wouldn't always be in the right mood to update my blog. So now that I am actually typing right here (omgosh I sound like everyone is despoopoo to read my blog or something. Perasan-ing.) I would like to tell you about how life might turn out for me if I were a guy. The main reason why I even thought of this is because of my freaking PMS today.I thought I was going to die, it's so hard being a girl.

If i were a guy,

1. I don't think  my brother would have existed. So I strongly think that he should be thanking me for this. The reason why we have a brother is because we didn't have one to begin with, my dad being the first one among all his siblings to get married, they wanted a boy and sadly the first one(me) came with a vagina. Then came a second one, also with a vagina. I don't know if it's me or just them- I think they're all despoopoo to have a dick in the family. My mom took the chance and gave birth to another one and this is how I got my annoying little brother. Okay. This whole paragraph is like so irrelevant.

2. My grandparents would have adored me. I mean they do love me and all but like I said, they prefer dicks and if and only if I have one. They would have treated me like a KING. I mean if I keep all of these achievements(not much but it's enough for them) I've been getting, I'm pretty sure they'll think I'm awesome. (Perasan-ing again. Sorry. I'm pretty it's PMS.) Not to mention my aunts and uncles, they already do like me but then if i were a boy, it would be 123456789 times better.

So those are like the good parts but what about the bad parts?

3. I would have never met the FIFITS, I mean I would have but then I am a guy. Would they even let a guy join the fifits, well maybe they will but would I join? I am a guy and hanging out with a group of girls would make me look like I'm friend-zoned or something. I would have never being able to unleash my inner yellowness to my girls and I would have to do it on guys or else the girls might report me to the teachers and get me into to massive troubles. Also, even if I did unleash me hamness onto the guys, would they be able to take it in openly? BOYS and GIRLS and different species. VERY different. Meh. Forget that, how would I know? Right?

Here's another paragraph where I'm going to be all PERASAN again. You may scroll past if you wish. I wouldn't want to burn your eyes. But maybe I do, whatever just read it.
If I were a guy, I think I would be hot. I would have gotten my driver's license last year and I would have been able to drive my mom's car while she gets a new one. If I were a boy, I would be so much closer to my brother, I might even have to share a room with him and my sister will be all alone and my brother and I might even gang up on her. (Woah that's sad.) If I were a boy, I might even have a girlfriend right now and I would never have put up with just being a teacher, I doubt it'll even cross my mind. I would have aimed higher and strive harder. If I was guy, things would become so much easier. So much easier. But then, what if it isn't? What if staying a girl was the best choice? I will never know. I just hope that I wasn't given a choice when I was brought to this world. Like you have two button right in front of you before you launch yourself out into this sorry yet surprising world, if I did have that decision to make, I think I regret it now.

I'm not saying I'm not happy with everything I have now, I just think it might be fun to think of all the possibilities. Imagine having everything we ever dreamed. Don't you want it? Maybe? Can you see it? Kinda.  What if huh?

Random Conversation I had with my mom:
me: mom imagine me, a guy.
mom: no way. you're going to be a massive headache.
me: why? won't be i be like your tall hot son?
mom: who cares about that?
me: then how am i going to give you headaches?
mom: when you bring girls home lah!
me: -laughs- but what if I'm gay?

She did answer my question.

oh and woah.
Andrew Garfield is so hot.























Yes Andrew, ASDFGHJKL is almost correct.


I noticed Mike Teo also likes this pose.

okay I better stop before this turns into SPAM.

oh wait. It already is.