wtf

i don't always mean the things i say. sometimes when i say no, i'm actually dying for you to make the first move. there are also times when i give in and step on my own pride and i DO NOT swallow my pride for anyone. i thought you knew me well enough to intrepret. i thought you knew me well enough to understand i need you to talk to me when i fucking don't want you to. i thought you knew me well enough to understand no matter how mad i get as long as you TALK to me. I AM WILLING TO PUT SHIT ASIDE. I tell you to back off and you just did it. like that. you're not even going to try. i am tired of being the one to initiate every little thing. Love doesn't hurt. BEING in the love with the wrong person does. shit. life doesn't let me move on wtf am i suppose to do? you think i never tried putting you behind my back? you think it's easy. well maybe it is easy for you. but it's hard shit for me.