#hee

i have terrible terrible mood swings. I cannot count how many times i've went "UGH!" to "YAY~" and then to "GAH!" and back to "AWW~" and the process goes on and on. I can't control these things. They just come and go and if i don't express myself and keep things like this bottle up. One, I would either EXPLODE. Two, I would break down and GROSS sob in front of everyone. It happened a few times now. I haven't got there yet this year and I have my friends to thank ( you know who you are ). I don't know why i fan girl over younger guys, I DON'T KNOW. I don't want to actually but I just cannot help it. I see a cute guy, I have to swoon whether i show it or not. IT happens. Last week had been a stressful week and  i have a feeling it's not going to end soon. I am really frustrated but at the same time happy because that's just me. Take it or leave it. I hope these PBS are over with quickly. I hope these experiments are over with fast. I wish the remaining time we have together would just slow down a little, so that i can take a second to actually wonder about the whys and whens and of course all the what ifs. Okay. back to stressful life. See ya.