Wednesday, December 19, 2012

I'm BORED. I want the holidays to end quickly but then I don't really want it to. I'm growing attached to being fat and lazy, I like staying at home and just watch anime all day. Yeah I know I just said that but wtf watching anime is starting to get boring too so I switched to reading manga but it's the same thing. I'm bored of it now. I get bored too fast I just don't understand. Don't get me wrong I'm not saying that it's the anime that is getting boring, it's just my brain. The brain craves for something fresh. Oh and if you like reading shoujo then I recommend 'Gakuen Alice', it's still on-going but OMG the feels it gives you. It's worth it. It started off really happy but then it got SO freaking dark at the back, it wasn't what I was expecting when I watched the anime last time. I am now on the latest chapter and I have a feeling that it's going to end somewhere April next year. Okay back to stuff in real life. Remember when I said my tutor cancelled on me because she has other kids to deal with? Guess what she cancelled on me again T__T She said she has a fever and that she would have to delay until tomorrow. However, I just got a call from her and she told me that she has the chicken pox gosh I feel bad for her. I hope it's nothing serious, no I'm saying this just because I want her to get well soon so that I can start crashing stuff with a car. (well maybe just a little bit) Again, I was really disappointed. Not sure if dad's gonna get a new car or not? He mentioned buying a house wtf I don't understand. I can't butt in either because well- he's the dad and I am like the kid. The BIG kid. It would be nice to have my own car o-o

There's nothing much going on right now and I'm going to fix that. Starting from NOW. Well maybe tomorrow? I just realized I've been blogging about crap. Gee crap = feelings.


Yes Finn I like the smell of your butt too.
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Tuesday, December 11, 2012

B.A.L

I have reach to the point of the holiday where I no longer have things to do. I'm so bored but I'm also just too lazy to think about stuff to do. I even cleaned my room because I was too bored! I took a 4 hour nap just now can you believe it? Well, this has got to end. I must start doing productive things again! I need to get books for the next semester and start dealing with what I have to do next year. Making a list would be nice too. However, this is not why I am blogging today. In fact, I don't really have a reason. I just thought I'd blog because I promised a certain someone that I would.

I watched this drama recently which I got from Siaw which was initially from Shnwei herself, it was on my to-do-list after STPM and that's one tick. omgosh I know Gong Yoo looks kind of weird in this picture but every scene of him in the drama was so wonderful. I mean he's like 33 years old and I still find him very very very very very attractive. I have to stop this. I am suppose to be a cougar(well, not anymore.) but- o-o never mind. Moving on.

I'm so sorry but he is just- ASDFGHJKL

Also, I'm suppose to be having my driving lessons this week but my tutor. SHE BAILED ON ME. She said we can only start next week and I was disappointed. VERY disappointed because for a second there I thought I could finally move a vehicle without using my physical strength. I think this is mainly the reason why I'm bored and lazy now, because I THOUGHT I have things to do this week but it turns out- NO I don't. Now that I think of it, I'm not very excited to drive anymore. Gee, thanks for nothing you mood swing poop.

I have nothing else to write about. End of story.

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Thursday, November 29, 2012

Taking a turn and I'm loving it.


MUST.GET.RID.OF.DEPRESSING.POST. This the main objective today. I understand that I've been filling my blog with a lot of negative energy and I am going to make it up to all my readers(if any) by blogging about something different, something that actually fills myself with joy. -smiles- It was a sincere smile okay? Even if you don't see it, you know I'm sincere. Okay? Okay.
Here I am typing along still thinking about what to blog about while I scroll through my phone gallery trying to remember anything important and HAPPY that happened for the past few weeks. And yes you're in luck! I found some.

Exactly 20 days ago. I finally finished STPM semester 1. It was horrible but but I was HAPPY because it was over but then, I don't think I did really good this time. I have to admit that I didn't finish the whole syllabus, it's not that I don't have time to it's just that I've been slacking off too much thinking that there will be ENOUGH time for everything when it was clear that there wasn't. Damn I have a feeling that I'm going to have to retake after all. The reason why I was studying my ass off as mush as I can is to avoid retaking. TOO BAD SO SAD (okay my bro taught me this and I like it.) FOUR papers and I am not confident with even ONE. I even went to have lunch at MCD with T and Dith before Maths T, oh boy that spicy chicken yum yum LMAO. Alright enough about that, I'm making myself guilty. I am going to reveal a picture. A very ugly one too. Haha.


before and after car crash style

I also did my computer test. I called my tutor just before the first day of STPM telling her that I'll go for the test the next Monday and I even motivated myself to study like crazy for it because I wanted to get a full mark so that the institution would give me money :P well TOO BAD SO SAD I didn't even study. I didn't even finish the 500 questions and I even went to bed early the night before. I have no fear wtf. Woke up the next day and I got really really nervous, I was seriously afraid. 


see I'm still holding the 500 questions with me. I don't look nervous because i'm camwhoring.

And you know what? My tutor promised me 9AM so I thought that I had at least 30 minutes more to finish the 500 questions but she was EARLY. Too early omg. I grabbed my shoes (no socks too lazy) and got on the car and the teacher greeted omg she is so nice, I feel really bad.

tutor: did you do the questions in the CD?
me: -totally forgot about the disc- HUH?
tutor: HAH? you didn't do the CD ah?
me: -shakes heas apologetically-
tutor: Then did you do the 500 questions?
me: -smiles- errr... YA.
tutor: oh then can lah if like that.

dang. guilty dao bao man. If my dad was there he would have said something like "是谁教你讲骗话的?我有教过你咩?" But I had to do it, I didn't want her to worry about me. I got there and did some checking in and stuff ugh the guy at the counter was so SLOW and when I finally got to the room I started sweating. I did the questions so very carefully, putting every ounce of my brain juice into good use. I checked my answers three times and then it was finally time to hit the finish button, it felt like making the biggest decision in my life or something.
-clicked-
-stares at screen-
-internal flail-
I PASSED.
thank you thank you thank you thank you
-kisses the floor-

My dad for some reason suggested that we take a long drive to Lawas that day, we all agreed because I thought it would be fun and stuff. Well it was fun when you get there but the LONG drive was killing me and my back and my neck. Dang it the 6 hour drive really made me moody and cranky. All I wanted to do was go home and sleep but then I didn't. I stayed up and went online and yeah stuff happened. Not gonna talk about that coz it's not important anymore. I saw Angel btw but she didn't see me, HAHA good. Just what I planned dang I can imagine Angel looking around to find me when I told her the color of her shirt. It wasn't really much because I didn't really enjoy my aching back.

Invited Siaw over to my place and we went to my cousin's wedding together. The night before the wedding was alright, we had something to eat and slept really late that night because mom decided that it was a really good time for some ZENQ (11PM++) and of course. I CANNOT RESIST. ZenQ was different that night coz they freaking ran out of pearls. We had to substitute with something else and it felt like eating tadpoles. We did a little painting if you know what I mean ;) and went to bed after 1.59PM. Well, use your imagination. Woke up really early the next day and I was so sleepy, I don't know about Siaw but I'm sure she was craving for more sleep too. We all gathered at my Grandma's place where the groom would come to 接新娘, my other older cousin have prepare some obstacles for the groom omgosh they made him put on mouse ears and a pacifier + dance to Oppa Gangnam Style. All I could think of that time was that they all needed lessons from TK LMAO, they weren't bad but they can do better.


 Got really tired after the whole thing because I didn't get enough sleep! Took a nap and then we attend the ceremony at Dewan Tun Fuad later that evening. Put on the white dress I bought, made Siaw wear her smexy dress and off we went. A lot of people attended and my feet hurt because I was wearing heels again. It was sad but I didn't have any other shoes, I mean I couldn't possibly wear sneakers right?



Siaw and I and lotsa other people in frames.



   see how pretty Siaw is :3



owl necklace from cousin Alicia. I like it.


We left early that night and went to Starbucks. My first starbucks. I feel a little guilty for bailing on my cousin's wedding but oh well you know, STARBUCKS. Slept late again that night ahaha sorry Siaw for making you sleep so late every night.


Had to wake up early again the next morning because we had to attend this urm cash give away ceremony? Okay whatever it is. I got cash and that's all that matters. Had a girl's day out with Siaw and Shnwei teehee



we went to watch Breaking Dawn part 2 wtf I was like
"OMG OMG WHERE'S CARLISLE'S HEAD?"
"YER WHY JASPER DIE?"
"WAAAH JACOB!"
"EFF THAT ARO FACE!"
"WAHLAO WHY HE KILL MY SETH?"
"YER WHY SO MANY PEOPLE DIE?!"
throughout the whole climax. Yes you can ask the girls, I was really annoying HAHA. Damn I feel like having a Twilight Saga marathon! Who wants to join me?
Also. I found myself a new boyfriend. -ham smiles-



SO SMEXY

We also went to Kaison and I spent money on more unnecessary little note books like I always ALWAYS do, took pictures with bears and birds and whatever it is that's cute in that place LOL.

Siaw likes bunnies.


while Shnwei likes chicks

well me? I- I like well you know what :P

We walked around a bit and finally ended up at.. JANG JANG yes you guessed it. STARBUCKS. Toffee Nut Latte is really good nom nom. I want more damn.



28 NOV 2012

finally had a real conversation with a balloon I managed to keep. was really happy. noticed something I never  did. realized some things too. i was really happy. oh. I also got STARBUCKS for peace offering :) but really, you didn't have to. got addicted to Origami and stuff and ended up being obsess with little shiny origami papers. I NEED MOAR.

Siaw's still at my place, I'm going to make her change my nail polish every single night MUAHAHA. Meanwhile, I'm going to keep doing origami and stuff.




this is where my phone sleeps now :3

I'm going to reveal some stuff about me here lol.

1. this is me when I over react.

like I seriously bang on anything in front of me and go ASDFGHJKLQWERTYUIOP.

2. i sleep talk and sleep pat.

ask Siaw. She knows. She's been sleeping with me for days now.

3. i like hugs. i really do.
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C:
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Monday, November 19, 2012

six letters two words.



what a dull looking balloon, it doesn't even attract my attention and if you ask me I think it kinda looks like an apple too. What? No that's not the point here, what's important is when you let that single thread go. It slips away, and might never come back. But if you're lucky, it might get stuck on something and you get try your best to get it back. The risky part is when it hits something sharp and it just explode, like that. Well, not everything ends that sad, this balloon right here deserves a happy ending too you know? What if, the balloon floated away, far far away, and then it stopped. Some other kid notices it and brought it home. Well, that's just what if...
A balloon is filled with air, isn't it? It shrinks with time too, losing every bit of that bad air and leave only those that are worth keeping, even if it fluctuates to it's most pathetic form. The balloon only keeps that little much with it, that little much.
That single thread that you carefully hold on to.

Holding on too tight and you exert too much on it.

Losing your grip little by little and it would slip away.

Maybe not right away, but it happens.
There you are with that red balloon in your hand and the next thing you know, you are now desperately holding onto the edge of that only single thread. And then it's entirely up to you, whether to stop trying and let the balloon go or continue to pulling it in and it yours again.
The thread was starting to hurt your fingers, it bring tears to your eyes. You let go a little decided that it's best to give up and then you realize, that the balloon was way too important to give up on. You tighten your grip, ignoring the pain it's been giving you and you slowly try to pull it back in. Slowly, carefully, patiently, ignoring every bustling nerves and just waited, not sure if your effort was enough, you look up at the balloon. No matter how hard you try, it doesn't seem to be drawing nearer at all.
And then there you know it, it's finally time.
Well, a balloon is just a balloon, it doesn't know how to fight for itself. It certainly doesn't know how to fight for others either. It's understandable.

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Thursday, November 15, 2012

deal with it

People come and go, you just have to deal with it. Not every can stay and not everyone would want to. I know coz I left some people in life but I'm unsure if anyone has ever left me. There probably is and probably will be more too. Meeting someone doesn't mean that they'll stay forever, once they have done their purpose, they are going to leave you just like that, not turning back, no looking back, no nothing. I did a lot of thinking last night and I found out that the reason why I've been so unhappy about things right now is because of me, myself.
I am about to reveal the dark side of myself here and I hope I still have friends after this.

1. I have the constant need to feel appreciated.
Let it be a small or huge thing, I want part of it. I don't always want center attention but I need to be a part of it. So when people leave me behind or set me aside, I just- crack. Yeah I'm that kind of a person and I reckon I always will be too. This is one thing I hate about myself. I can't even control it you know? I tell myself that there's nothing to be angry about and then I make up some excuse about how I should be a part of it and then explode. Just like that. I know and I truly understand that there are times when people just want to spend time with other people and stuff and I really get it because I too spend a lot time with other different people. This is why I say I am fucking selfish. I only think about what I want.

2. I am afraid of being replaced.
This. I feel really insecure all the time and  end up saying shit to people and ruin everything. When I put someone first, I want them to do the same too you know but we all know that's impossible. Different people feel for different people. When a heart breaks not it don't break even. It hurts more on this side or that side or maybe it doesn't hurt at all. I just want to be #1 sometimes (sheesh I sound so full of myself) I hate feeling insecure. It sucks the soul out of me. I guess the only way I can get rid of this is to just freaking don't care. But I can't do that. I care about every little thing, I observe every little thing, even if it's from the corner of my eyes. I SEE THINGS and keep quiet about it if I think it's none of my business. I don't want to be replaced and I don't want to feel like I'm being replaced either, it does really bad things to my self esteem and it makes me feel like I'm no better than poop in a toilet bowl.

3. I get jealous easily. 
Statement 3 really clicks with the two previous ones. I admit that I get jealous a lot. You might not know it but I probably was jealous of you before. I don't like being jealous but I go ahead and do it anyways. Just kidding, what I mean is that I can't help it. I see something jealous potential, I do three things. First, I look away. Second, I make up some crazy strategies in my head and realize that there's no way I can do things like that. Third, SWEAR. Well sometimes I actually tell a few people about it, and of course like any other real friend would do, they tell me that I'm just thinking too much and stuff. I KNOW. That's why I was jealous the first place, because I was thinking too much. My sister is the best listener ever, I admit that sometimes she get annoyed too if I complain too much but she'll always "pasang telinga" and let me blab about things that I am too lazy to type on my blog.

These are the 3 main things I have to get rid of right now. The more I look at it, the more I think that they all came from the same category. Bitch category. I've done things that I'm not proud of and there are things that I regret not doing. You know sometimes you just got to take a chance, or you will never find what you're looking for. Well of course, sometime it doesn't turn out the way you want it to be but I'm sure you'd find something after the storm. It might be a rainbow? Or a Leprechaun!? Okay what am I saying?

Life's too short. I don't want stupid things like this to ruin what's in store for me in the future. Sometimes you just need to freaking move on( yeah right aud, like you can do that ), maybe not right away but you will. Like one my friend said the other day, it really hit me. Moving on is different for everyone, some might take a really long time and some might not, but one thing's for sure, you will eventually forget and move on. They say that time heal all wounds, but what am I suppose to do with that ugly scar? sometimes I just want someone to fight for me you know? make me feel wanted again. even if it's just one person.

“Our wounds are often the openings into the best and most beautiful part of us.” 

come and get it.
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Saturday, November 10, 2012

100 assumptions/facts about my guy best friend

1. he is a stick.
2. he likes strawberries.
3. he can drive. (I CAN'T)
4. he likes domo t shirts and owns some i think.
5. he can play the piano.
6. he has a huge mirror in his bathroom. (scary)
7. he likes the color blue.
8. he oversleeps.
9. he wakes up and goes back to sleep.
10. he has a constant need to nap.
11. he cannot cry.
12. he doesn't admit it when he is angry.
13.  he tends to nap longer when he's mad.
14. he likes to GANGNAM and he can too.
15. he can only order food from familiar places.
16. he likes ZENQ.
17. he likes to sing.
18. he likes to make me sing.
19. he thinks I'm too high pitched.
20. he likes to make me scribble lyrics on his table.
21. he gets all of my jokes.
22. he is very bad at comforting though
23. he makes up for it for being understanding
24. he can be a little insensitive at times.
25. he is also oblivious. (not sure if it's an act)
26. he has a problem talking to new people.
27. he thinks it's hard for him to make new friends.
28. he thinks sodas are meant to be poured at your future best friend.
29. he had a food fight with me back in 2009
30. he went to PLKN and he likes it lol
31. he is the first guy i slapped.
32. he is taller than me. ( HE USED TO BE SHORTER! )
33. he was bullied BY me back in 2007
34. he was a nerd. I used to call him that
35. he is a pervert.
36. he might not look like it but he is an attention whore.
37. he has a very loud laugh.
38. he can make anything funny.
39. he thinks my boobs are a hindrance.
40. he doesn't like public affection.
41. he does like hugging other guys in public though
42. he is anti social at times ( never with me. )
43. he likes to blog but has too little time.
44. he makes things a whole lot easier for me.
45. he is very well organized. ( his room is cleaner than mine. )
46. he procrastinates a lot.
47. he does't have the ability to process new stuff very quickly.
48. he thinks that's the reason why he never smiles back to new people that fast.
49. he is a silent stalker.
50. he likes to camwhore thanks to me and JUDTIH and BRIAN
51. he doesn't like his phone.
52. he turned down i Phone 5 because he wanted a flip phone.
53. he is very nice once you get to know him.
54. he loves music.
55. he loves memorizing lyrics too I bet!
56. he wants to drive a Myvi. (why?)
57. he wants to know where Brian lives. (I want to too haha)
58. he is one of my karaoke partners.
59. he is an introvert + extrovert. ( i can't really tell anymore. )
60. he is VERY bad at expressing himself that's why I dig it out of him every time.
61. he is a slow texter/replier
62. he is a scorpio.
63. he is younger than me. (by a month or so. STILL younger)
64. he likes to be on facebook.
65. he has a surprisingly caring cousin.
66. he is extreme when it comes to Truth or Dare
67. he is shameless when it comes to a group of close friends.
68. he is a good brother and a good son. ( well good enough I think. )
69. he is !@#$%^&*(
70. he can be secretly caring at times.
71. he likes cute emoticons.
72. he brought me to prom.
73. he didn't get me a corsage. (there was no need but yeah you know-)
74. he always pretends to forget about my birthday. (what if he wasn't?)
75. he is very convincing.
76. he likes Lightning.
77. he knows I hate Lighting's sister.
78. he loves his mom.
79. he hates paying for parking ticket.
80. he was obsess about finding a vest for prom that day
81. he likes 那些年。
82. he looks like he has constipation when he's doing maths.
83. he likes to go to the library.
84. he can't study at home.
85. he was ketua perbarisan before.
86. he loves our GREENIES
87. he always gets straight to the point.
88. he is my best friend. ( i cannot believe it took me only 20% of the time i used to think of 100 facts about myself to write 100 things about you. )
89. he wants to make people proud.
90. he has made me proud.
91. he is weird but that's what I love about him.
92. he is moving away and it pains me.
93. he is the only guy I trust like crazy so please don't ever lie to me.
94. he is that one person i can be AUDREY with.
95. he invented laws for me. (AUDREY'S LAW)
96. he never gets tired of my constant complaining.
97. he didn't leave after knowing TWO sides of me.
98. he's special and I am afraid of losing him.
99. he doesn't know that no matter how many times he pisses me off, I will always stay.
100. he is someone I would like to keep for the rest of my life.


this is cute haha.
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Tuesday, October 16, 2012

100 facts about Audrey.

1. audrey secretly likes her own name
2. audrey likes green stuff
3. audrey hates smokers
4. audrey sleeps with her sister
5. audrey can't swim straight
6. audrey has never been out of Sabah
7. audrey brings her phone to bath
8. audrey stalks
9. audrey can't drive. YET
10. audrey likes aloe vera
11. audrey does not have a bed
12. audrey hates the crowd
13. audrey likes highlight pens
14. audrey likes playing HARVEST MOON
15. audrey cheats when she plays HM
16. audrey is a fifit. no she doesn't smell bad
17. audrey likes basketball
18. audrey likes her hot physic teacher
19. audrey sleeps without her bra on
20. audrey has dandruff and hairloss problem
21. audrey likes to EMO
22. audrey is a virgo
23. audrey support gay rights
24. audrey is a camwhore
25. audrey only goes on twitter to post emo stuff
26. audrey likes astrology
27. audrey likes to google stuff
28. audrey roleplayed as Ling Yao on tumblr before
29. audrey likes her food hot
30. audrey likes her drinks cold
31. audrey hates sour stuff
32. audrey is almost taller than her dad
33. audrey is a lot like her dad
34. audrey has constant pms
35. audrey is a pervert
36. audrey's brain cannot function after 9pm
37. audrey gave her pets away
38. audrey forgot to feed her pet fish once and it died
39. audrey killed her sister's fish by letting it swim in soap water( IT WAS AN ACCIDENT )
40. audrey likes adventure time
41. audrey has an annoying laugh
42. audrey killed a chick when she was young
43. audrey had short hair until she was 12
44. audrey bullies her sister
45. audrey likes ZENQ
46. audrey gets jealous very easily
47. audrey likes seafood
48. audrey likes to wear her sister's clothes
49. audrey likes glasses
50. audrey wants to live in Japan
51. audrey wants to be able speak japanese fluently
52. audrey likes Captain America
53. audrey is very emotional
54. audrey bottle things up
55. audrey likes cute stuff
56. audrey has a constant urge to change phones
57. audrey is LAZY LAZY LAZY
58. audrey likes ANIME
59. audrey can pop a balloon with her bare hands
60. audrey does not like to read
61. audrey likes 'A crack in forever'
62. audrey is afraid of ghost
63. audrey is picky
64. audrey likes NGAU CHAP
65. audrey only likes crunchy apples
66. audrey is supa sweet when she first talks to you. beware
67. audrey's hair is not BLACK
68. audrey is fat
69. audrey likes TK
70. audrey likes loud people
71. audrey gives extra points to those who can sing.
72. audrey tried lucid dreaming but failed epicly
73. audrey believes in paranormal activities
74. audrey can never keep a diary
75. audrey likes fast replies
76. audrey dislike slow texters
77. audrey likes the number 69
78. audrey likes sitting by the window
79. audrey is weird
80. audrey likes t shirts that makes her look skinnier
81. audrey lost her first kiss
82. audrey has a long tongue
83. audrey likes spirited away
84. audrey thinks she's funny
85. audrey likes hugs ;)
86. audrey likes to party
87. audrey has been using the same number for 3 years
88. audrey had roaches land on her face before
89. audrey hates frogs
90. audrey wish she could teleport
91. audrey is a physics student
92. audrey likes autumn
93.  audrey likes to keep her nails short
94. audrey wants to be a GUY
95. audrey's hands go cold when she's nervous
96. audrey is very good at not expressing herself
97. audrey's best guy friend sometimes call her Alliase
98. audrey can't even list 100 things about herself in one hour
99. audrey likes man SWEATERS.
100. audrey wants to be happy :)

okay random much but yeah here's 100 facts about Audrey.

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Sunday, October 14, 2012

wtf

i don't always mean the things i say. sometimes when i say no, i'm actually dying for you to make the first move. there are also times when i give in and step on my own pride and i DO NOT swallow my pride for anyone. i thought you knew me well enough to intrepret. i thought you knew me well enough to understand i need you to talk to me when i fucking don't want you to. i thought you knew me well enough to understand no matter how mad i get as long as you TALK to me. I AM WILLING TO PUT SHIT ASIDE. I tell you to back off and you just did it. like that. you're not even going to try. i am tired of being the one to initiate every little thing. Love doesn't hurt. BEING in the love with the wrong person does. shit. life doesn't let me move on wtf am i suppose to do? you think i never tried putting you behind my back? you think it's easy. well maybe it is easy for you. but it's hard shit for me.

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Saturday, October 6, 2012

a few weeks ago I was stressing out about STPM and now well yeah, I guess I'm still stressing out and I think I might flunk my second trial. I am a failure. Okay I'll get back to that emo post later on. AND NOW (omg this mc thing is sticking to me lol)

PROM was awesome.

I mean yeah the stress of having to bear the burden of a MC was really hard to handle but at least I had three other guys doing the same with me. I have to thank them for putting up with all my drama and actually made this thing happen! All these three boys worked really hard to get things going. (Especially the one who is actually taller than me :/) Being the MC is really tough for me because I cannot react to sudden changes, I hate it when things go out of order and I have to kill some brain cells just to think about how to react to the damn situation. I pushed things I cannot handle to my partner because he is just so much more capable than me :)

If you're wondering, I'm the one in the dress wearing heels LOL, this isn't going to be a very long post, I feel guilty for blogging like crazy instead of filling my brain with some physics or chemistry but blogging about PROM is a must! So I'll start with the things that happened Friday morning, chemistry paper, DIE. I only knew how to do 20% of the paper, I feel like a failure. Well I got used to that because the same thing happened with Physics and Maths T, it was hell. However, that one and a half hour passed by really quickly, hahahaha NO. Did I mention that the my exam seat is super hot and contained. I sweat while I was sleeping and that day I woke up because I COULDN'T FREAKING BREATHE. I went to the library to check on things and it was a mess LOL. I guess not many went to duty because HELLO exam week, and then teacher Bevina walked in and gave me another pressure talk :( omgosh I cannot take that kind of things, I mean I don't like being pressured, she's talking about hoping that I'll show leadership and do something good for the library. I'm scared. Teacher Florence was there too and she said things too but I couldn't really remember because both of them talked to me at the same time. Talked some more to the teacher about the next day's jamuan and then I remembered the MUET listening exam. Hoho. I remember it starting after some ulangkaji but oh boy they started early and the whole class waiting for TK and I. wtf. okay. enough. suan liao.
After school, I got home and made the script and kakao Abby in between. We were debating about if she should get new shoes and then I convinced her to buy the shoes yay~ I got ready and went to TK's, went to CP did some PSS stuff and then GOT YOYO YAY. Rush rush rush and then got to Ming Garden. We were the earliest. Nobody else was there well except for that one worker, she was busy putting up the decoration. Alan, Franson, TK and I practiced for about an hour and I had to go change and get pretty :3 Must thank fifit for helping me with make up because I know nothing about those D:

not feeling the pressure yet, we still had time to fool around until more and more people started filling up the room. I have stage fright and I hate crowds. Alan and Franson were getting more and more confident because the room was filled with a lot of pretty girls. (according to them lah)


 TK was rushing the video and stuff and had not much time to practice so we didn't really practice much.



Ngai I should have wore a necklace.

Never ever take on this task again Audrey. It stresses you out.

I like the platform, it's super nice to step on.


I guess the whole went pretty well, it was overall satisfying :) just that I wished the senior would cooperate with us more. I have to say I am kind of disappointed when no one especially the seniors came up to waltz. Some of the more supporting and sporting seniors :3 I thank you all for coming up front to dance.
Got dragged out to do the slow dance. Nah show you a picture I like lah LOL.


I can see my preggo like stomach LOL and don't even start with the earmuffs. :3 I think they're cute haha.
Tiong? Why you look at us?! Look back at Ellen!

 Oh did I mentioned that TK and Brian has matching ring and clothing? Take a closer look at their top and you will notice that it is of same design but different color. LOL I OFFSIDE.



Judith & I :D



Should have said he was my favorite senior :D (FOR NO REASON, just coz he's really cute.)



This heart shape won't stick to the board anymore and everyone decided to take pictures with it, including US coz we are camwhores bwaahhahaa


NAH 6 RENDAH SAINS :3 




it's a shame that Cheng Yeng, Xiao Yhun and Chee Chia wasn't in this with us :(

credit goes to iiyee :3 ABBY i really like this one.

and not forgetting me fifits :P

I wanted to taste Abby's face but my tongue wasn't long enough to reach her pretty face! We didn't take much pictures this time because we were all really busy with our own stuffs. NEXT YEAR LAH lol.

I guess that's all from me, sorry but the broken Malaysian English. I failed MUET.


LIKE A BOSS
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Wednesday, July 25, 2012

This place has been inactive for a while and  I do apologize. I really don't have time to mess around anymore and even if I did, I wouldn't always be in the right mood to update my blog. So now that I am actually typing right here (omgosh I sound like everyone is despoopoo to read my blog or something. Perasan-ing.) I would like to tell you about how life might turn out for me if I were a guy. The main reason why I even thought of this is because of my freaking PMS today.I thought I was going to die, it's so hard being a girl.

If i were a guy,

1. I don't think  my brother would have existed. So I strongly think that he should be thanking me for this. The reason why we have a brother is because we didn't have one to begin with, my dad being the first one among all his siblings to get married, they wanted a boy and sadly the first one(me) came with a vagina. Then came a second one, also with a vagina. I don't know if it's me or just them- I think they're all despoopoo to have a dick in the family. My mom took the chance and gave birth to another one and this is how I got my annoying little brother. Okay. This whole paragraph is like so irrelevant.

2. My grandparents would have adored me. I mean they do love me and all but like I said, they prefer dicks and if and only if I have one. They would have treated me like a KING. I mean if I keep all of these achievements(not much but it's enough for them) I've been getting, I'm pretty sure they'll think I'm awesome. (Perasan-ing again. Sorry. I'm pretty it's PMS.) Not to mention my aunts and uncles, they already do like me but then if i were a boy, it would be 123456789 times better.

So those are like the good parts but what about the bad parts?

3. I would have never met the FIFITS, I mean I would have but then I am a guy. Would they even let a guy join the fifits, well maybe they will but would I join? I am a guy and hanging out with a group of girls would make me look like I'm friend-zoned or something. I would have never being able to unleash my inner yellowness to my girls and I would have to do it on guys or else the girls might report me to the teachers and get me into to massive troubles. Also, even if I did unleash me hamness onto the guys, would they be able to take it in openly? BOYS and GIRLS and different species. VERY different. Meh. Forget that, how would I know? Right?

Here's another paragraph where I'm going to be all PERASAN again. You may scroll past if you wish. I wouldn't want to burn your eyes. But maybe I do, whatever just read it.
If I were a guy, I think I would be hot. I would have gotten my driver's license last year and I would have been able to drive my mom's car while she gets a new one. If I were a boy, I would be so much closer to my brother, I might even have to share a room with him and my sister will be all alone and my brother and I might even gang up on her. (Woah that's sad.) If I were a boy, I might even have a girlfriend right now and I would never have put up with just being a teacher, I doubt it'll even cross my mind. I would have aimed higher and strive harder. If I was guy, things would become so much easier. So much easier. But then, what if it isn't? What if staying a girl was the best choice? I will never know. I just hope that I wasn't given a choice when I was brought to this world. Like you have two button right in front of you before you launch yourself out into this sorry yet surprising world, if I did have that decision to make, I think I regret it now.

I'm not saying I'm not happy with everything I have now, I just think it might be fun to think of all the possibilities. Imagine having everything we ever dreamed. Don't you want it? Maybe? Can you see it? Kinda.  What if huh?

Random Conversation I had with my mom:
me: mom imagine me, a guy.
mom: no way. you're going to be a massive headache.
me: why? won't be i be like your tall hot son?
mom: who cares about that?
me: then how am i going to give you headaches?
mom: when you bring girls home lah!
me: -laughs- but what if I'm gay?

She did answer my question.

oh and woah.
Andrew Garfield is so hot.























Yes Andrew, ASDFGHJKL is almost correct.

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I noticed Mike Teo also likes this pose.

okay I better stop before this turns into SPAM.

oh wait. It already is.
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Sunday, July 8, 2012

It's finally over and now I'm starting to wonder when will I ever be able to hold the ball again. I mean I am not going to be able to play anymore which is really sad, I can actually lose weight if I keep this up for maybe half a year. I don't have the motivation to and I'm far too lazy, I am going to let my fats accumulate after this. I have to admit, I'm actually glad Bestah wrote my name and made me join the team. I would have nver volunteered either, I could never bring my self to do it. Lacking self esteem and all, I was really close to quitting but yes, just like what T said I know what my priorities are. I decided to stick with them team because they didn't have enough members. (actually we have enough LOL) I just want to thank everyone on the team for making me feel so appreciated, I feel so wanted and it really strives me harder to score more points but I failed everyone the second match against Inanam. I couldn't get my balls in the basket ngai. I don't know. Maybe it was me, or it was those girls constantly pushing me back and forth. I don't mean to badmouth the other schools here, but I feel that Inanam girls were a bit too rough. The game against All Saints was really awesome, I felt really accomplish. I want to be able to see them again next year, please do come back :3 I'm too lazy to write so I'm going to give you pictures instead.


Took this picture with Karee and omg. I look like a man. #foreveralone
                                            
Okay now I'm lazy. Enough. I'm such a lazy blogger. I fail.

PFFT.

                             
yes let this picture haunt you.

Extra pictures where credits goes to iiyee
                   
       

 

I swear, all my embarrassing pictures can be found on either Aby's or TK's blog.

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