#september

September. My favorite month of the year. I'm pretty sure you can guess why and I am not shy to admit so too. It's the month of the year when my mom gave birth to her first baby 19 years ago. I'm sure she still remembers it like it was just yesterday. Even though I'm a horrible daughter to have, i lose my temper all the time, i raise my voice all the time, but she still loves me and i admit that i will always love her too. This is what comes out of me when i blog at night. Sentimental stuff, not usually my style. I guess I'm going to bombard you guys with some virgo facts and tell you if i can relate or not just to cut out all the sentimental shit i wrote.

' Virgo women are the suffer in silence type. They internalise a lot of hurt feelings and stress because they don't like to burden others'

Sorry to say this but it's NOT true. I mean maybe the not wanting to burden others is true, i don't like asking for favours because i don't know. i'm pretty sure everyone else has better things to do though this does not apply to my family members. I like relying on them, sometimes way too much but when it comes to my friends, i would think twice before asking them for help. Yes back to the suffer in silence type. HAHAHA. There's just no way Audrey can keep things to herself. I tell everyone everything. Well things about me of course, I have no problem expressing myself. I do it quite frequently too. It doesn't matter where I am or what time it is, I can always talk. Well, maybe not to everyone, just those who i know would really listen and actually have something nice to say afterwards. Woah don't get it the wrong way, I don't want people to tell me what I want to hear. I want the truth even if it's ugly. Note that. I like honest and straightforward people so don't beat around the bush because that pisses me off. You want something. Say it to my face. Or my hand. It works either way.

'If your girlfriend ain't a Virgo. I feel bad for you son.'

Okay actually. If your girlfriend was a virgo, I'd feel bad for you. You would have to deal with constant mood swings, yelling, coldness, mushiness, accusation, reassurance, and a whole of ugly stuff. Being the insecure people we are, this is what happens. You will hear constant "do you really love me?" "why do you love me" "what is it that you love about me" or even maybe "i hate you don't talk to me you piss me off don't text me don't you dare call me i'm breaking up with you this is over i don't ever want to see you again shut up eff off go away..." and that's only 16% of everything. But of course, it doesn't apply to everyone okay? I'm just saying this base on my experience :) HAHA 

'A virgo woman likes to work alone.'

Well its not that i like to work alone, it's just that i get things done faster alone. I am way more productive when i'm on my own because obviously there isn't anyone there for me to distract. Also one thing about myself is that I am a great distraction and i don't even have to try. Top reason why i never go study with my friends when they ask me to, I go there and all of us will end up with nothing but empty chat and laughter. The truth is I like working with people, I like how they give opinions and reactions or ideas which i can learn from. Maybe sometimes I can't take criticisms but all the time i am trying to accept everyone's opinion even if i don't like them. Accepting everyone's opinion is actually a hard thing for me however the irony is that i am easily influenced. I go with any plan as long as everyone is pleased with it. 

'Virgo women are extremely precise. We know exactly what we want, but we like things to be perfect. That is why we are fussy.'

Surprisingly true. I always think of myself as someone who would just go with the flow but truth is when i let someone take over and he/she does the opposite of what i want. I have the urge to punch them in the face. I can't help it. It's just Virgo logic. I do like things to be perfect. I spend a lot of time in my head thinking about the perfect things that would happen in everyday life but of course they seldom do. It however does keep me from falling asleep during maths so keep in mind that whenever i'm not asleep during maths. I am actually day dreaming while still keeping a straight face as if i'm listening to the teacher. Fussy. I guess fussy is my middle name. I see something out of place, i flinch. This does not really make me a very organize person. My room is a horrible mess, clothes everywhere, books piled up everywhere. Junk everywhere. Okay I think you have a very precise picture of how my room would look like. So call me when you're heading over, preferably 3 days before you come. Thank you.

'Virgos can sometimes come off as harsh but they have the best intentions.'

Yes, I apologize to anyone I've offended but I really really didn't mean them. I don't like conflict. I tend to avoid them (maybe not when I'm on my period) because fighting someone is very tiring. I can't sleep knowing somewhere out there, someone wants to grab a knife and stab me at night. I shy off whenever someone picks a fight (a real one) not because i'm a coward, simply because i don't want to make things worst. To be honest, I don't want to get myself involve in so many emotional things but it's fairly interesting so I keep getting myself hunched. I do have the best intentions. When I say something offensive to someone, it's probably because i wanted to make someone laugh and it means a lot to me that someone actually laughs at my jokes even though they all involve human anatomy. When I say something sarcastic it's usually because I want you to realize what you're doing it is upsetting me so that you actually stop before i smack your face. 

I would really love to go through some more but I am dead tired and a bug just flew straight into my face. I'm going to have to end this banana cookies baking session right here. 

'cause you are the piece of me I wish I didn't need,

chasing relentlessly still fight and i don't know why'