2 weeks of rest.

2 weeks of nothing to do besides homework. 

2 weeks of boredom. 

2 weeks of procrastinating.

No. Don't get me wrong. I'm not complaining. I just feel really absent-minded during holidays, they make me stupid. Holidays gives my brain a reason to relax and they stop working completely. I need to do something productive this holiday, I don't want to waste these 14 days with nothing. I'm thinking about studying but PFFT who am I kidding? It's the holidays friend, you're at home studying your arse off? Wait. That's what smart people do right? That's it. Adding that shit into my list. 

I have a list of things to do right in my diary right now and I'm trying to get most of them done by this week. I need to chill out and find tuition teachers next week. I still need to convince mom and dad to let me take up 3 tuition classes this time. I really want to ace this thing. My cousins came by last night while I was skyping Siaw and one of my cousin started asking me about school. 

cousin: Sshool started?

me: yeah.

cousin: sooo how is it?

me: *shakes head & weak smile*

cousin: you still planning on becoming a teacher?

me: urm. no. not really. I mean I might do civil engineering.

cousin: *eyes widen* good good. 

me: *nods*

cousin: yeah find something with more job chances.

me: okay. *smiles*

cousin: *smiles and left kitchen*

Yes, I translated that. We were speaking in mixed languages. I don't really talk much to this cousin. Yes, I turn into badminton girlfriend when I talk to cousins I'm not familiar with. You know the part where she said 'you still planning on becoming a teacher meh?' made me think. She sounded like 'you can do better than teacher, it would be a waste bah' Well, that's my opinion and I don't know her true intentions. I mean I would be flattered if that's what she really meant. Besides, I don't really feel like becoming a teacher anymore. I remember getting into a fight with my mom just because she wouldn't let me apply for maktab perguruan, damn I should have just listened to her and shut up. Remember guys, MOTHERS KNOWS BEST. Listen to you mother like how I listened to mine. Thank you mom, you opened up my eyes to see that there more to me than just that. It doesn't change the fact that she wants me to become a teacher though, I told her that was going to be my second option. 

Don't worry about not finding what you want when you're 16/17/18(heck whatever age), try finding yourself first. Don't push it. Things that are meant to happen will happen, all you need to do is wait. Some might have to wait longer but that just means you get to learn from more mistakes. Experiences makes you ten times the person you were. I promise. If you ask me, I'm still not sure about what I really want. I'm just setting myself a goal just to give me a reason to work harder. 

Oh, I went to ZENQ just now and went to have lunch at Kepayan. (We were suppose to have lunch first I know.) I saw Ellen, she was working in one the restaurants there. I walked over just to greet her and she was half hugging me in the middle of the place. She pushed my chin up just to examine the rashes on my neck, we laughed. 

Let it be a productive holiday yes?

NGAI so nice oh this picture.