Do I end up happy?

Yes, the question is.
Do I end up happy?
I read this book Abby borrowed me yesterday(Thanks Aby) and I finished it in one day.
The book was beautiful, it made me laugh, made me smirk and made me cry and even managed to get to gross sobbed for a while.
But most importantly, it made me wonder.
I wonder how my life will turn out? I wonder- Do I end up happy?
The book I read.
'A Crack In Forever.'

(Read it. It's awesome.)
Will I be happy in the future? Will I? I hope so. I mean everything happens for a reason right?
That's what I believe. I believe that things that are meant to happen, will happen. Whether you try to stop it or not. There's no stopping something that is meant to happen. The harder you try, the harder you fall when you fail that is. So the way I cope with this is to not set my goals too high, keep them low so that disappointment won't drown me.

I have to go through a year and half of hell and then I'll be out of this school. I will be 'free' and also showered with even more doubts. What am I going to do after I graduate Pra-U(it's what the teachers calls us)? Well things, stuff. THINGS and STUFF are not good enough, you're going to have to work really hard just to earn a spot in the university. (Well unless you have money, something I don't really have.) To be honest, the new kids in my class are kinda freaking me out, they all look so invincible, so smart, so genius. I am intimated, I feel like I am now in a class of 20 other PO LO PAOS. Which is horrible because I cannot being in the bottom of a food chain. I am not try to belittle the others who might feel offended but this is how I really feel. What if they are SUPER GENIUSES (which they are)? ARGH. I don't know why, but the whole Kumpulan 1 scares me, I think if they all gang up on me I might faint.  I just hope that they are not as bad as I think they are, I kind of hope that they are friendly actually. It really scares me to be on the bottom of the line. I want to be able to stand with them, proudly. Because I deserve it too. BTW, 4 boys in Biology and 5 girls in Physics. (And one of them is me.)

Enough for today.